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I’m feeling lost there’s doubt in me
I’m half the man I used to be
World said find love it sets you free
But I’m not lost, I cannot see!
You see there’s lust inside of me!
I’m feeling fucked I cannot breathe
It’s you I love but you don’t love me

Fuck this place,
I’m not whole, I’m deranged.
Go and paint your pretty little picture,
I’m insane and I will miss ya!

This world wasn’t what it’s meant to be!

See there’s a hole where my heart should be,
I wish my brain would just paint a scene,
All the beauty everything so green,
I overthink everything around me.
You know I’m fucked I don’t feel alive,
I lie in bed wishing I would die,
I’m not strong, but I still won’t cry,
I never thought I could take my life!

Fuck this place,
I’m not whole, I’m deranged.
Go and paint your pretty little picture,
I’m insane and I will miss ya!

But times have changed, now I feel fine
Fighting these feelings, fighting these lies, fuck it
Fighting everything the pain from within,
I’ll never give up yea, yea I’ll never give in,

My heart is cold but I keep my head colder,
Starting to warm every day I get older.
See it’s the little things I do that will change,
And it’s the little I do to keep fucking sane.

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from What this Means to Me, released November 30, 2018

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